Confessions.

this is a private blog from myspace.

a collection of confessions i have posted.

maybe a video idea? idk.

they need to be edited.

So these are my confessions.I took the idea from JOSH.

Confession 1:

I don't believe in true love. I just dont. I'm not talking about friendship love, i'm talking about LOVING THE PERSON WHO I WILL BE WITH FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, LOVE. It never works out. I've seen the BEST couples, shatter under pressure. Don't get me wrong. I've had strong feelings for the people that i have been with but i'm not convinced that it was love.

Confession 2:

yea i'm bi, but i dont think i can ever be in a relatioship with a guy. I still haven't had a boyfriend. but even so, My heart wants to but with the faith that i grew up with, there's always something in the back of my head telling me that i'm not supposed to be with another man.

Confession 3:.

not a real confession. unless you don't know me well but i love to dance. I may not be good at it but it's my true passion. I could write about this forever. I wish that i could major in dance. But i'm no good. Cause i can't dance. and i'm too fat to be a dancer. When i tell people that i love to dance they automatically think i mean club type dancing [which i do like] but it's not. I'm talking about real dancing. Ballet, Jazz, Lyrical, Tap, Clogging, Hip-Hop and such. My dream is to one day work for a dance company.

Confession 4:

I'm terrified of doctors. Most of my friends know of my fear but they do not know how intense it is. When i have to go to the doctor, i want to die. I had surgery once before. I stayed asleep 45 minutes longer than i was supposed to and i started having convulsions and they had to pad my bed. Everytime i go to the doctor i am told that something else is wrong with me. I can't explain my fear. It's VERY intense. believe me DON'T JUDGE ME!I ♥ U Confession 5:

i dont know what i amSCENE?EMO?PREP?anything like thati think i fall in all of those categories.in the scence of appearance.i'm preppyin attitudei'm emo.so WTF?Labels really do SUCK!

confession 6:

i can't tell anyone when i'm mad at them.i just can'ti cant make myself tell someone that they pissed me off somehow.you might be able to tell but for the most part, you can't even tell.So i'm pissed at someone and they don't know, and nothing gets solved.the problem remains unsolved.[davey.]

CONFESSION 7:

i'm afraid to fall inlove. i know that i say that i don't believe in love but the truth is, i'm afraid. i dont want to get hurt. i know its a part of life but i wish it just wouldn't happen to me. the truth is, i fall for people VERY easily, i just don't let them know. It might hurt to supress it but not as much as having my heart ripped from inside me. i would love to spend forever in someones arms...but i'm afraid.

Confession 8:

i know that the whole world does NOT revolve around me.but sometimes i like to pretend that it does.i know that there is a lot of people that go through worse thingsthan i am going through. like cancer and stuff.but i still feel like, "why did this have to happen to ME"i know a tumor is not a big deal but it is to mecause i'm scared of surgery.i would rather die, and trust me, i've tried convincing my mom.it doesn't work =..i konw many of the people who read my blogs have also read my page.all those fears.geniuine.and most of them came up within the last year.i do not know why.i noticed many of them had to do with tust and insecurity.there's something psychologically wrong with me.

Confession 9

i know what i want to do. but i'm afraid to do it. i know that i can't make everything right but i feel that i have to make everyone happy. even if i'm not happy. i want to go to UTT but my parents don't really want me to. they'll let me go but i don't want to disappoint them. Confession 10

okay. i want to be a doctor. i've never told anyone and i never believed in myself to be able to be one but now i'm going for my dream. it's what i've wanted to do ever since i was little. doctors saved both of my brothers lives i'm the only one that did not have birth complications. Thanks to doctors i have two brothers. And thanks do doctors i'm still alive. the tumor could have killed me. I now believe in myself and feel that i can accomplish anything that i want to. those were old. that's it. i'm gonna type new ones later.

Confession 11 I take pictures that make me look good. look skinny. and i still look fat. Confession 12

the reason that i'm so excited about being an uncle is because in my heart, deep down inside i know that i'll never have children. Confession 13

i didn't have a bad childhood but i didn't have some of the things that i wish i had. Which is why i still love going to the toy department and why i'm still a disney kid. Confession 14

i love my mother. she is the most important person to me. which is why i know i will never come out to her because i know it will kill her.

Confession 15

I have more online friends than real friends. and I like them better.

Confession 16

I don't think i've ever felt true love. it's something that I would like to experience.